You are not only a distraction for me,
From KrishnaJi (Lord), I had never anticipated that move
I had always thought that he loves to play with me,
Always inducing in me
Holding me captive
In her thoughts, which looked first as soothing as a dream run of mine
Making me reach the Mount Everest of Earth of my thought world in a little time
But as I started climbing the mountain for real, he always used to make me fall off the mountain
Something always happened and I always came back rolling back to the lowest point of the mountain where I started
I kept on falling and trying again and again for the highest prize
It felt I had fallen in a loop, which appeared to be infinite
And there was no release
Once my eyes opened and I saw myself lying at the bottom of the sea near the mountain
It was the first time I had fallen in the sea
In the darkest corners of the sea, I could feel dark clouds hovering over the sea
I could not feel any part of my body responding
My legs seemed stuck in the water
The only functional organs seemed to be eyes
Suggesting there is nothing to live for in this world, which appeared uninhabitable
Krishna seemed cruel to me
I was ready to become a part of the water around me
Suddenly, a ray of light appeared to come from above the sea, giving me hope
That happened when I saw her, the gorgeous female
My legs and hands began to synchronize
And I was out of the dark sea in a moment of time
But, then, I always knew Krishna is naughty
And this glimmer might be just a short remedy
Roots of fear of drowning in the sea began to surface
Fearing that as the previous girl was, she would be the same
And this could be another loop
But as the time progressed, I began to enjoy each moment with hers
Only seeing her could charge me the whole day
There was so much to give and take
She became my strength instead of weakness
The remedy became permanent
Then, I understood my lovely Krishna
After all, his “leelas” (acts) are so abstruse
Sometimes, he has all the hard ways to tell me
Now, there was no highest prize to achieve
Everything seemed touchable
Mountains became mere pebbles
And the whole sea had become so beautiful, so glorious that even the thought of it being dark was now a matter to ridicule
It is then, that I realized
P.S I love you.